the future's so bright for me

I'm frustrated that everything is moving so slowly in my life. In reality, things are happening at warp speed, but I have small goals to get through before I can move on to the "Big Show." The PO is dragging me slowly. I need to commit more entirely to finishing the scheme so I can at least move to that other shift. The first week or so of 5 am might kill me! But what a sweet death.

I am so excited to have evenings free where I can watch the sunset, play with the horses, go out to dinner, try classes...you name it, I'm up for it this year. I'm so tired of existing, it's time to live!

I have been waiting on MIMT to get my certificate to me before I started to plan a business. I wanted confirmation and validation that I did it. I am waiting on the scheme thing to work through, too.

I have found a potential partner for my massage life. Kelly is an enthusiastic woman who is driven to follow her dream. I can really use her energy! We found a space to set up in, now we're just hoping the landlord will accept our offer towards rent. I can see working there, and the potential for decor and ease for clients.

I may not be pursuing the medical side of massage like I thought I would. I may be hitting on the energy side of things more. I will always learn about the physiological side of what I'm doing, but I feel drawn to help people destress and relax. I don't want to work with people's emotions, except to help them relax and learn to work on their own emotions. I feel pulled in so many different directions with this vocation. A calling of sorts.

I never felt that before in my life. And the support I've gotten from friends has been amazing! I have even had people who have been skeptics of my choices who are excited for me. That energy makes a huge difference to me.

The economy is so frightening right now. Every time I turn around, I hear of another place that is cutting back, slowing down. I am secure with my 40 hours at the PO, but I worry about those guys who are PTF's. They've been getting the max overtime, and they can't see what can be around the corner. If the newest rumor of early retirements is true, then I'm sure there will be more people interested. We'll see what they offer. If the next phase of employees are not "career" employees I'm sure they will be used to the maximum and no overtime to those career employees. But, I've been working to eliminate the OT for a while, and with the massage, I just won't need it!